EMOTIONAL ATYAACHAAR

Man, am i sleepy right now. Then why am I writing? Why spend time meticulously writing and expressing when i could be sleeping like a log after a hard day's night? :p (for all u Beatles fans out there). Cause I believe that what I want to say is important. It might be the most insignificant thing on this planet, but since its mine, its important to me. Joy, Love, Pride. These are the things that one lives for, the things that separate us from the other animals out there. What is fascinating though, is that these emotions are of no use if they're felt constantly. Only by achieving, experiencing or analyzing a certain situation, can these emotions be truly felt. I experienced so many emotions in the past week. Mind-numbing happiness, gut-wrenching despair, self-induced lethargy, woman-induced anger and work-induced stress. It felt like an overkill of emotions. Why did i feel so? Cause they all happened so quickly, so fast, i didn't have time to savor them, even the bad ones. Maybe this is what makes the Modern Man numb, not a lack of emotions, but a multitude of fast-approaching and fast-departing emotions. It happens to such an extent that He might become apathetic towards it. That's where the real trouble lies. If He's not able to appreciate the beauty of a simple sunset (not the one at Sunset point in Mahabaleshwar, a normal one), if he's not able to feel pity for a beggar with both his hands cut off, if he's not able to enjoy a romantic walk in the rain, if he is not able to recognize the beauty of Test Match Cricket (yes, i said TEST MATCH :p), if he is not able to feel that excited feeling in the pit of his stomach when he goes to talk to a pretty girl and if he cant recognize the value that his parents have brought to him, then what's the point?? Why live if some of these basic emotions and feelings are negated? Why earn money? Why work hard? Why exist on this planet?

In this age of instant gratification, no emotion is ever experienced completely. You're surprised one minute, appalled the next and frustrated the next. When external sources can control your emotions to such an extent that you cant savor these things, then you actually start to wonder if you're a man or a machine. I think this is what kills most people. No, i dont mean kills in the physical sense. I mean, it kills their spirit, their innate ability to emote and their child-like enthusiasm for life. It grows to such an extent that even having fun becomes a task, or work or a mindless process. Contact people, set up the details, pass on relevant information, clear up schedules to "MAKE TIME" for fun. That's not FUN, its a burdened, heavy and feeble representation of FUN. Its like playing Need for Speed instead of driving a sports car, like checking out pictures of the Niagara Falls instead of actually going there or using Facebook to be connected to people instead of actually meeting them in the flesh. When time is less, and emotions are low on the priority list, this is what happens. Man becomes sucked into that hole of selfishness from which there is no escape, until one day he realizes that true happiness is a state of mind, not a "thing" or "ambition" that can be achieved.

Happiness is a multi-varied, multi-dimensioned thing. People claim to experience it a lot, to describe it, to give pointers to "achieve" it. But you cannot direct towards or describe happiness to a person. It has different meanings for different people. A person may be happy if he has money, he may be happy if he has women, he may be happy if he lives in the mountains, he may be happy if he is always alone or he may be happy if he is sleeping. This is what gets me thinking about the paradox in emotions. If you don't experience them, you're not living. And if you experience them too much, then also you're not living.

Though ive touched the concept of too much emotion, im coming back to it. Its hard to define and predict when, where and how you will experience emotion. That's its beauty. Even in the most unimaginable situations, your feelings and emotions could always surprise you. Also another logic can be that each person has a different emotional range, thus the concept of "too much emotion" is a relative one. The term "emotional atyaachaar" has become famous via a recent bollywood movie. But what exactly is this "emotional atyaachaar" ? Too many feelings clouding your head at one point, you feeling bad about lots of things or you unable to feel any emotion at all? All the above are inter-linked, and herein lies the main dilemma. The human body cannot be studied like a machine, theories about the heart can never be proved true and man's brain can never be fully explained. All these questions, but no answers. Seems like science has failed us and progression of technology is actually making things tougher than what they are, at least to the heart and mind. Cause the heart and mind do not understand science and technology, cause science and technology is just a feeble, inaccurate representation of how this amazing, amazing world works.

I think this post has now caused a certain chaos of feelings in me. When that happens, the best you can do is just relax and go to sleep. I thinks its my cue to do just that. Good night.